Why I actually took to writing
I was never a writer, to begin with.
Nobody is. It is always the situations - that make us who we are, the way we are.
But yes, I was always an avid reader, right since childhood!
I still remember myself hunched over a book in our free classes in school, while all the other students would be out playing.
I think it's very obvious that only those who read, can write. Reading broadens your horizon and introduces you to a world that you would never have imagined to be a part of.
Let me begin with introducing myself - rather introducing all those traits that actually made me take up writing on a serious note.
I was an introvert, a compulsive overthinker and an impulsive, impatient young lass.
While face-to-face converstions with people used to be difficult, books used to be my world - my favourite escape from reality.
I used to immerse myself in books and the world they created - as a means of running away from people.
All the introverts out there would vouch for this. We all have a hobby that we resort to in order to not engage ourselves with many people around.
And if given proper attention, we can nurture that hobby into a beautiful passion - something that feeds our soul!
And that's where writing came as a breath of fresh air! I nurtured and fed my passion for reading, and that bore a beautiful fruit in the form of writing!
Being a Capricorn, I think I was born an overthinker.
To always walk an extra mile, to always stay ahead in the thought process, to always have answers to all the questions, to be always prepared for the worst - all used to be a compulsion.
Over thinking stresses you out - a lot. It drains you of your mental peace and well being, because you imagine all those scenarios and situations which are potentially never going to exist.
It was at this time that somebody suggested I should start writing.
Writing brought a soothing relief to my thoughts.
It gives my thoughts a platform to express themselves and their concerns. And it was when I actually saw my insecurities on paper, I realised the futility of those self doubts.
And this helped me calm down my raging thoughts.
While I was growing up, I was often told that I have a very expressive face.
Now the sad part is that even my dislikes and disappointments used to be painted all over my face, along with my happiness and content.
I took this in my stride, believing that if I admit and accept my flaws, I would come out as honest.
But I had little idea that this act of accepting the way I am, made me impulsive.
The moment somebody pointed a finger at me, I would lash out, without thinking for a second. And then maybe a couple of minutes later, I would realise and regret the avoidable conduct.
That made me understand, that I was in my unaware state of living; because I believed that the way I behave and act, was a reflex - just the way my brain was wired.
So soon after I started writing, I realised that it wasn’t actually a reflex - but a conditioned habit; and, that I had all the power in the world to break that habit.
Some positive rewards and negative punishments on my part - did go a long way in reprogramming my subconscious mind, and all of this made me a lot more cautious and premeditated.
Right since I was a child, I was way too fast, with everything.
I learn fast, I talk fast, I read fast, I write fast, I even think fast - everything has to be quick, and instant.
While I thought that was a positive trait, for I thought it would take me way too ahead of my peers, later I realised that it had made me so very impatient.
Every thing takes its own time to ripen and mature.
And this I realised when I took to writing.
For, it made me explain that its not just a one time thing - multiple thoughts and multiple revisions at multiple sittings are required.
All the writers here would agree, that you have to give your mind and thoughts - ample time to think and mould and redefine, so as to have a good piece of literature.
And while I’m writing this, it gives me immense pleasure to say that now, I’m NO longer impulsive or impatient, neither an introvert nor overthinker!
While I’m not sure how far I’m going to go as a writer on Medium, one thing I’m sure of - that,
WRITING HAS MADE ME A MUCH BETTER HUMAN!
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